Why Pretend !

Well I don't totally disagree that true love exists  but I would rather just simply state that  love IS Over Rated !! 
The feeling of being that special one for someone is just not comparable  but what's the point if  that very person is not the ONE ! What if he/she is the wrong one !?
In a relationship , there is always one person who loves the other a bit less ! The feeling of being in love is though really heavenly but the reality that it does not stay sucks!
Most of the times people are afraid to confess their true feelings about each other because love has deep meaning and is very pure and even though people don't feel love for someone they would just fake it so that they don't hurt their partner ! But as soon as the feeling grows they start drifting and finally they either lie, cheat or just walk away ! The truth is ugly and hard to face ! People come and they go ! There's is just attraction ! Love does not exists !
What stays if you ask ....is your own self ! Your identity! What you are ! Who you are ! What are you from the inside !
And well your identity seems to change over a breakup, over a new person or over getting hurt ! What we forget is... people in life are temporary ! And well why should we change our own self  for something which is just temporary ! ? 
Love is temporary ! Change is forever ! So we better be our own selves ! Why pretend to be something we are not ! Why lie ! Why cheat ! Why fake ! Why change !
Life would be so much easier if only we stayed the way we are..if only we be the people we were raised to be! If only we stop PRETENDING !

Travelling !

Well there are people who like to sleep in their cozy beds at night and look forward for a new day to start so that they can go back to work in the morning. These are people who are always worried about the future. They tend to ignore the rest of the world and their choices are limited ! But no ! THAT"S so not me ! I love going places ,exploring the nature , and just traveling traveling and a lot of traveling...! I really just hate ROUTINE LIFE ! Even when everyone's sleeping and dreaming about stuff in the future , I prefer driving upto some place where insects can be heard and where the city lights haven't reached yet....and where I feel free ! Where silence is all around .....and darkness scares people away!  I feel like embracing it all! And well, yes, I feel like going home too but the divine experience you get from that silence , the energy you gain and the things you learn about yourself ;no other thing in the world can give you all that ! If I had enough money what would I not do  or rather I would say, where would I not go ! I want to explore every damn state in the world...! Natural beauty as well as the man-made towns....EVERYTHING ! If I ever got a choice between doing all this and studying further I would not even give a second thought for continuing my studies!  I just wish I have enough time to leave this world so that I can actually chase after my dream ! :D

A spooky experience

People may think that it would be really stupid of me if I exclaimed that I have started believing in the supernatural....spirits....ghosts ! But well, I am going to state this anyway ! ""Yes! I do believe in them...! Cause I believe what I see and yes I HAVE felt their presence !
Like the usual days when power is cut off, I lighted up a few candles in my room. It was still evening and there was nothing weird or suspicious  about me having a sudden urge to take a bath in my dad's studio's washroom ! And so I was there with a pin-drop silence in the studio with a torch and darkness surrounding me. As soon as I undressed and turned on the shower I felt like someone was touching me but then I reassured myself that it was nothing but my stupid brain making things up ! Soon soap was all over my body and i could feel the hot water of the shower relaxing every inch of me! It was really pleasurable ! It had been a rough day for me...my head was over crowded with emotion ! 
I thought I felt someone touching me again and this time I was scared..!  I ignored it and continued to shower. But then I heard something. So I lowered the water pressure to listen what wasiit. Whatever those noises were they couldn't be avoided.I could clearly hear someone calling out my name . And this scared me to the core of my heart . My heart started pounding faster and even faster. I started hurrying to remove the soap . Obviously I couldn't run out naked ! I started praying but the noises grew. I could hear screams, children crying, mourns and mixed sounds of animals. I wrapped the towel around me and I began to run ! It was so loud that I felt like someone was playing them up all inside my ear. AS i was running , my heartbeat rate continued to rise and I started running out of breath. I was badly sweating! I ran out of the room as fast as I could ....putting on a gown on my way to the door and as soon as i reached the door I lost my sense and I fainted.I opened up my eyes 2 hours later realizing I was already in my proper clothes, my hair all dried up and realizing that the power hadn't been cut off since the morning. I actually was horrified to realize that all cause whatever happened I am sure , it did happen! 
People may not believe it but this incidence made me believe that there is something , in fact a LOT that we do not know about Earth , God and existence .

Over again !

Mia was an innocent kid until she got dumped by the guy of her dreams.  Fair , tall and utterly handsome.! He was the kind who would rarely be liked by all the other girls around.  He was self centered and arrogant but she didn't car. And she loved him as much as anyone could ever love but he walked away giving her silly reasons.  
She became bold and outgoing.  Got into the wrong people and showed him she could be happy without him and that's when he realizes that he made the right choice leaving her! 
She shows him that she is strong but she dies everyday seeing him with other people and she still keeps on wishing that he comes back someday .
She tries to move on and to date other guys but at the end of the day all she thinks about is the same guy who didn't value what he had. The same guy who left her half way !  She is always unsatisfied and she goes to bed everyday shedding tears for what she had lost. She feels unloved , cheated, betrayed and useless! 
"IT was just perfect! Was I not good enough?  Am I not that pretty ? Am I undesirable! " is all that she wonders !
She keeps thinking ! But universe had a different way of answering her prayers. 
She went through a lot right ! She didn't know a single thing about relationships and about life ! Now she did ! 
She couldn't figure out what was going on in his life any way ! Nor she was being able to figure out her own!
Her life sucked ! It didn't!  But that's how she felt about it!
Whoever she trusted ever in life betrayed her ...her father !  Her friends!  Her best friend!  And now this guy she could give up on life for !
And now after all this , she overcame it all and held herself tight and became mature enough to handle herself. .! She , in middle of all this drama, grew up ! This was definitely a big big change !Our little girl grew up!  She now believed true love does not exist . Everyone who says they love someone they lie!  Everything that is told should not be just believed!  World is full of frauds and liars.
Love was just a game which was to be played till one gets bored of it.
Time passed. And well universe wanted to turn her into something else this time ! All her prayers came to reality ! The guy whose memories wouldn't go away ..came back to her giving her everything she had wished for . HISTORY repeated itself over again. The guy who dumped her back then came back to her life. Her views about everything changed over again. She gathered all her heart's broken pieces and made herself believe in him over again.  He made her go head over heels in love with him over again . She started to love him even more again . And well, her dreams broke into a zillion pieces the same way over again.  Believe it or not ! Shit like this happens and you are just left in the middle of nowhere cursing your own self ! People! You just have no right to play with someone's heart ! Don't play games! Grow up!

Grey's Anatomy and men !

Men don't realize how hard they make it for us dealing with relationships.
The previous day I was watching "Greys Anatomy" , the episode in which Derek chooses his ex wife , Anisson over his girlfriend Meredith, who loves him with her every inch ! He chooses his ex-wife who slept with his own best friend a short time back . He couldn't decide what he actually wanted and he broke up with Meredith , which meant getting back with Anisson but well, he was confused here! He wasn't still into Anisson! All the time they spent together he never stopped thinking about Meredith . It seems he wants them both ! OH !! Seriously ! Messing up with both , Anisson's as well as Meredith's feelings over his own stupid feelings for both of them was just so unacceptable ! Couldn't he just take a simple easy decision ! Turning Meredith's life upside down over nothing wan't fair ! Really ! He ultimately ends up with Meredith ! But well....guys !!You don't get to mess around with our feelings just because you are a bit unsure of what you really want ! 
Why do you complicate stuff that much ! Either you want something or you don't ! There are no other things added to that ! 
Take control ! And try and act a bit more mature !

Dreams ! Do they come true !?

You…wonder why have you been chosen to be the one who has to suffer ! but you don’t realize that god gives troubles only to those who have the capacity to bear it . You curse god …and often you cry but you still try to hope if anything could get better with time but it does n’t  .
 

It rather just gets worse and even gets the worst with time..
 And then at that stage of utter despair
 you start building up useless stories in your mind and start believing that it is the reality .
 
you do nothing but imagine the impossible and start trusting on it..you keep praying every day and every night ! But nothing changes ….! You loose your friends because of your weird behavior . You get scolded by everyone around you …. your friends… your classmates..colleagues ….your boss….teachers…parents and everyone else because of your irritating nature 


…The things you wish for don’t even seem near to happening. 
 
After a whole year of disappointments , when u have lost all you hope and you finally have moved on …, when you have stopped thinking so much about those things you needed so much in life…..the things you had desperately wanted come to knock your door.
 
You cry …you shout…you dance and laugh endlessly…..
 You don’t know what to do then ….What you always wanted you have got and you feel complete …..
 You feel so content that nothing in the world could make you feel so !  
 your dream has finally come true……..and nothing else you want from the almighty ….
 
I never believed in dreams actually coming true…..but after something like this happened
 

YES i would say i STRONGLY believe that if u wish for something to happen from the bottom of your soul …sooner or later it WILL COME TO REALITY !
 So just dream and try your best to make it true …because when u wake up and try making things work out only then they really will ….